I don't know. I've been having a worse time than normal. It almost seems to me like I'm grieving not only letting go of the food habits, but also grieving letting go of the lifestyle of an overeater. I didn't realize that so much of my whole person was wrapped up in the sneaking, the snacking, the constantly looking for the next thing to stuff my face with.
I have been being gentle with myself and really noticing not only the times I do wait for hunger, but also the times I walk past food and don't eat.
It's just that it doesn't seem to be enough right now. I am ordering the book Women, Food, and God. Roth's book have helped me greatly in the past, and I've heard only good about this one as well.
There is a void of some sort in my life that food has filled for these 25 years, and my dream is to fill that void with something else. I long for that day. But it scares me too.
How did you overcome your fears and move forward?
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