What do you do with the realization that you like to overeat?
That's what happened to me.
As I sat and made myself popcorn last night, the thought popped into my head that I like to binge. I like to drown myself in oblivion. I like the feeling of not having to think or feel after a long, stressful day.
I like it.
So then what? What do I do with this?
I didn't see it coming. And now I feel blindsided. I thought I wanted to be a normal eater. I thought I wanted to escape this pit.
But the truth might be that I like being here.
So now what?
2 comments:
Keep asking yourself "why?"
Back in 2004 when I quit yet another diet, I finally realized, "maybe I just don't want to lose weight." But I couldn't be okay with that...so I asked why...and it led me down a very unexpected path.
I used to think that I liked binging as well. Turns out I just liked the initial comfort of it and the latter drugged up feeling. I don't like the sick, bloated and hungover part of it though. That wasn't treating myself well and that was my goal.
I don't believe there is anything wrong with using food as a comfort. Feeling satsified isn't frightening. Being out of control is frightening.
Finding the right balance is the important part.
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