80%

I am finding myself discouraged that I cannot consistently seem to break the "diet/binge" cycle. I know I have to patience with myself, to undo all the broken thought processes that years of dieting and binging have left. But it's hard. I'm not going to lie. More than anything I want to be a consistent intuitive eater. I'm getting there. It's just a lot more undoing than I realized.

And it's frustrating to gain back weight. It is. I do honestly feel like once I become even an 80% intuitive eater, that the weight will stabilize, but this middle ground remains tough for me.

I am so angry at the diet industry. I truly am. They feed people such lies. Lies that wreck hearts and lives. I am determined to beat them at their own game. I love myself too much to give in again to them.

I will find peace.

I will.