Hard

I'm still struggling here.

Things are made worse by the fact that dh and I are fighting. Constantly. About everything. It's exhausting me. He feels sorry for himself all the time and I can't deal with all these kids and then him on top of it. He snaps at all of us all the time. I'm so weary of it. Is this his midlife crisis? If so, it's going to send me off the deep end right along with him.

Top it off with the fact that he parades around in my face all the time with his weight loss and his eating habits, and yeah, its' a recipe for disaster. :( I'm tired of it. Really, really tired of it.

I turn to food for comfort. More than anything, I want to find new coping skills. I need to find new coping skills. Because if this truly is a midlife crisis on his end, I'm in for a fight.

More and more this journey is becoming about ME. About finding ME. About taking care of ME.

Selfish?

I don't think so. But it is one thing in my messed up life that I can do to help myself.

Sigh.

I'm so weary. :(